I had a dream that I lost the body fat percentage bet. My score was 49% and EJ got 54%. At the end of the dream, I realized that it was still 2 weeks early and we could get dunked again. I was in a panic, but hopeful when I woke up.
Having awoken, I was uneasy about the dream’s messaging. It seemed to be warning me – telling me to go work out right now, while I still have time. I laid in bed, thinking that thinking about working out would exercise my muscles enough. And I did nothing.
But realize I don’t have a killer instinct. Playing raquetball, I’ve let Shawn come back from deficits he should not come back from. I should finish him off, but I don’t. Being a little ahead 6 weeks before the end of this body fat bet and I’m starting to rationalize losing, instead of upping the ante and workouts.
Sure, the elbow aches a little and I’m thinking I don’t want to do more damage, but heal instead. But I think that’s just a cover up for a lack of killer instinct. I’ll be upset if I lose, but I’m preparing for it already, so I won’t be that upset. But it does increase my chances of losing.
The strange thing is that I’m pretty competitive. But maybe I’m so egoistic that I really do think I’ve won, even when I’ve lost. Which allows me to lose more often. Need to get that ego in check and really put out the effort here in the final stretch.
Did get EJ to share a brownie sundae last night for dessert though.
I guess I do like the trash talking and verbal dancing more than winning. And its less offensive I think if the talking is done while the competition is close. Done after a blow out just seems like rubbing it in, but while it’s not decided, and it’s close, it seems fun. I offered EJ a split – where we’d just agree to share the winning pot, but he looked offended by the idea. Partially cause I said it’d be 60/40 and not 50/50 (I am winning right now after all). And then I got offended by how offended he got – as if he thinks he still has a chance to win. I’ll crush him for thinking that.
But that competitive killer flame lasted for 60 seconds, then I went back to thinking it really is a pity that we both will have put so much effort into this and one of us has to lose.
I’m just not sure which one it’ll be.
And it’s still not too late to support my fitness challenge for charity.